These are the roads ,,do you know what i mean?

THESE ARE THE ROADS
1
It all began in late december,
a dirty fool in search of buzz
One door closed another one opened,
I dived right in, gimme what you got Cuzz
Break out the cards now lets play poker, Load up the deck I see the jokers' smile
Like they always knew somethin I never have
Just pick up your hand and wait awhile....
chorus
I've been gamblin with my freedom,
playing games with pride
I keep shuffling the reasons
I won't make it on the inside
2
The lines were white that we were walking
the bubble burst while noses ran
I took a trip(in?) to Barcelona
just to lie low and let the heat die down
A vocal arrangement with some Morroccans,
And a couple of heads I knew from back home
These are the Roads that lead to where I am
They wanna put me away but I dont wanna go.......
chorus
I've been gamblin with my freedom,
Living between the lies,
I can never stop believin
I wont make it on the inside
CODA
Gimme another day to chase the monsters away
Brother posted bail, how can such a safe bet fail?
3
It was a Friday when justice arrived.
There was stuff all around but they were looking for more
Never to forcast to find a collegue,
lying flat out on my living room floor,
I gotta confess I became complacent
and I never listened to what I was told
These are the roads that lead to where I am
If I can leave the state, I can never go home.....
Chorus 3
I've been gamblin with my freedom,
with a million to one alibi
I keep shufflin the reasons
Dealing for my life
I can never stop believing
I wont make it on the inside
I just can't face it on the inside,
and I can't stop shaking..on the inside.......