I'm sorry

Im sorry
Sorry that you never let yourself have a chance
A chance to get to know me
A chance to let me love you
I'm sorry that I wasnt what you wanted...
Im sorry you thought I was such a big mistake
But you got me
Your my mother
Not a good one but you are.
I wish you didnt think i was such a fucking mistake
I would love to have what my friends do
Loving mothers...
but in others ways its ok
I learned from your mistakes
I learned that I was put on this earth to shove it back into your face
That Im something you'll never be
A good person
I know Ill never be like you
and that brings joy to me
but I must forgive you
for all the shit you put me threw
So I forgive you
But my hate for you is still strong as ever
And I dont know if that will ever go away
Im sorry
Sorry you messed up so bad
Sorry that you didnt love my dad
But I know he loved you
Sometimes I hear him cry
Because he wants me to have a mom so bad
but you know what I dont need a mom
I have everything I need
So as you leave this earth
Put me in your head
and I hope you wonder
what you never got to see
What you never got to be
That is my mother...